第1章
The night my younger brother Noah went into cardiac arrest, I called Julian twenty-seven times to ask for money.
He picked up on the last call.
"Thirty-six thousand dollars? The Sterling family's money is for strategic investments, not for pouring into that bottomless pit you call a family."
"Start a GoFundMe. Send me the link and I'll share it."
"Adults need to take responsibility for themselves. Stop expecting other people to carry you."
I collapsed outside the ER, cold all over.
In the early hours of the morning, I went home to get some documents and heard him in the study, speaking gently to his assistant.
"Order Lily a pink Panamera. A hundred thousand dollars. Put it on the company account."
"She fell off her bike today and scraped her knee."
"Scars don't look good on a girl. From now on, that car will be just for driving her around."
Lily had been an intern at his company for all of seventeen days.
He turned, saw me, and nodded approvingly.
"That's more like it. Adults handle their own problems."
"I donated ten dollars to that GoFundMe of yours too. You are my wife, after all. I have to look out for you."
Ten dollars and a hundred thousand dollars.
I said nothing and walked into the study.
In that moment, I finally understood.
It wasn't that he didn't have the money. It was that I wasn't worth it.
I pulled the divorce papers I'd prepared out of the drawer and signed my name.
From then on,
we would go our separate ways and owe each other nothing.
...
When Julian's ten-dollar donation came through, Noah's heart rate dropped below twenty for the third time.
The nurse stood in front of me, speaking quickly.
"Ms. Carter, the patient needs to be moved into the hybrid OR immediately. Please pay the outstanding thirty-six thousand dollars first."
I stared at my phone screen.
Donor: Julian Sterling
Amount: $10
Message: Adults need to learn to carry their own weight.
The call finally connected. His voice was full of irritation.
"Evelyn, how long are you going to keep this up?"
I said hoarsely,
"Noah went from ventricular tachycardia into ventricular fibrillation. The doctor said if this goes on any longer, his brain will be starved of oxygen. Please front me the thirty-six thousand. I'll sign an IOU."
He gave a short laugh.
"Do you have any idea how much money Noah has cost over the years? Sterling money is for strategic investment, not for keeping your family alive."
Someone in the OR shouted, "Get ready to defibrillate!"
I could barely stay on my feet.
"He's only twenty-two. I'm begging you."
"Begging won't change anything. People have to learn to face consequences. You can't dump every risk on someone else whenever something goes wrong."
He hung up.
At two-thirty in the morning, I went back to the Sterling house to get Noah's old medical records.
The living room was dark.
Julian stood in the doorway of the study, his voice so gentle it sounded unfamiliar.
"Don't wait for the hospital in Switzerland. Pay extra and get her through the VIP channel. Lily scraped her ankle too. Scars don't look good on a girl, so have them do scar treatment while she's there."
He hung up, saw me, and frowned.
"Why are you back again?"
"To get the medical records."
He reached for the papers in my hand.
"How is the hospital?"
"They're still trying to save him."
He paused.
"I already donated."
I looked at him.
"Ten dollars?"
His expression darkened.
"The amount isn't what matters. What matters is that I made the gesture."
So ten dollars was a gesture.
I asked quietly,
"What about Lily?"
"She scraped her ankle, and you bought her an entire rehab slot in Switzerland."
Julian's gaze went cold.
"Lily isn't the same as you. Her sister Chloe saved my life. I owe the Hensleys."
"So Noah's life is supposed to make way for hers?"
He cut me off sharply.
"Stop dragging Noah into everything! Chloe died in that fire. Can the Carters stop using illness to wear me down for once?"
The words hit me like something blunt to the chest.
Maybe he knew he'd gone too far. He pulled out the first-aid kit and put a Band-Aid over my split fingernail.
"Pain can be endured. Don't turn pain into an excuse to demand things from other people."
Years ago, when the Sterling Group's cash flow collapsed, he was hospitalized with a bleeding ulcer.
I stayed beside him for three days and three nights.
Every night, my phone vibrated nonstop with calls from creditors.
I pressed my fingers to my temples and called everyone I could think of while sitting beside his hospital bed, too afraid to close my eyes.
I scraped that money together dollar by dollar, begging for every cent, and forced myself through every sleepless night.
When he woke up, he held my hand and said,
"Evelyn, I'll owe you for the rest of my life."
Later, he gave his guilt to the Hensleys and his patience to Lily.
All he left for me were self-righteous little lectures.
I pulled my hand back, went to the bedroom, and took out the divorce papers.
I'd revised them many times.
Starting with the first time he abandoned me for Lily's birthday party.
Starting with the first time he called Noah a "long-term risk."
Tonight, the last thread snapped.
I signed my name.
Evelyn Carter.
My hand didn't shake when I wrote it.
When I finished, I left the divorce papers on the living-room table and walked out of the house.
第2章
The next day.
I got a message from Julian.
[You want a divorce? Are you insane? I don't agree! Come back right now.]
I didn't go home to negotiate.
I went straight to the law firm.
Attorney Harper flipped through the documents and asked,
"Are you sure you want to file for a contested divorce?"
I nodded.
"Yes. Mediation is fine too, but I don't want this dragged out."
At 10:40, Julian sent another message.
"Lily is having her ankle evaluated today and she's upset. Stop making trouble. Come home tonight and we'll talk."
I stared at it for a while, then replied.
"If you want to discuss the divorce, talk to my lawyer."
He called almost immediately.
I declined the call, turned off my phone, and went to the hospital.
Noah was awake, an oxygen mask over his face.
His eyes lit up when he saw me.
I bent down and asked, "Does it hurt?"
He shook his head.
"Did Julian come?"
I pulled the blanket up to his shoulders.
"He's busy."
The light in Noah's eyes dimmed, but he quickly smiled again.
"Julian is an important man. Of course he's busy."
My throat tightened.
Noah had always liked Julian.
He said Julian was like a lighthouse. As long as you could see even a little light, you could hold on for a long time.
Only now did I understand.
He wasn't a lighthouse. He was a searchlight.
He could shine on the Hensleys, on the company, on everyone respectable enough to matter.
Just not on us.
That afternoon, the hospital told me the balance had to be paid.
I went to a pawnshop and laid my mother's pearl necklace, my father's old pocket watch, and the diamond ring Julian gave me when we married on the counter.
The owner looked at me.
"Need cash fast?"
I said, "It's life or death."
He quoted me a very low price.
I didn't bargain.
As I tried to pay, I got an alert from the bank.
The supplementary credit card tied to the Sterling family trust had been restricted.
Restricted transactions: medical institutions, pawnshops, large transfers.
A few minutes later, Julian's assistant called.
"Mrs. Sterling, Mr. Sterling said you've been emotionally unstable lately and may make impulsive purchases, so he put temporary restrictions on the card as a risk-management measure."
"He said you need to learn asset management."
I gripped the phone.
"Tell him I'll be giving this record to my lawyer."
Half an hour later, my GoFundMe page ran into trouble too.
A notification popped up on the platform.
"Your campaign has been suspended for review due to suspected exaggeration of a medical condition and using the public profile of an affiliated corporate figure to solicit donations."
Customer service said a verified corporate account had filed a complaint.
The complaint alleged that
I was exploiting my status as the spouse of the Sterling Group CEO to manipulate public sympathy and damage the company's reputation.
I stared at the ten-dollar donation in the account dashboard and suddenly laughed.
Julian even wanted control over the way I begged for help.
He wouldn't save Noah.
And he wouldn't let anyone else save him either.
That evening, he came to the hospital carrying paperwork for a medical installment loan.
"The limit is decent. Sign it and the money should come through quickly. And you should delete that GoFundMe link."
I asked, "Why?"
"As my wife, public fundraising makes the group look bad."
"Noah is dying, and you're worried about appearances? Besides, weren't you the one who refused to give me the money and told me to start a GoFundMe?"
He said in a low voice,
"So I changed my mind. Is that not allowed? How was I supposed to know you'd make yourself look like a beggar and embarrass the Sterling Group? And why should I give you money to save Noah? What does that have to do with me?"
I said, "Because you're my husband."
He sneered.
"A husband isn't an ATM."
"And a wife isn't some liability for you to manage."
His face went cold at once.
"Evelyn, you're getting more and more hostile."
I said quietly,
"I used to think that if I endured a little more, you'd feel sorry for me. Then I realized it only made you more comfortable."
I picked up the installment-loan documents and tore them up page by page.
"I'll find another way."
Julian stared at me.
"Then remember that. Don't call me in the middle of the night crying and begging again."
After he left, Noah woke up.
He looked at the torn paper in the trash and suddenly said,
"Evelyn."
"Chloe wasn't the one who saved Julian in that fire."
"I was."
第3章
The cup in my hand crashed to the floor.
"What did you say?"
Noah's voice was very soft.
"Six years ago, I was the one who went into the fire and saved him."
I froze.
After that fire, everyone said Chloe had saved Julian.
Chloe died.
Julian took responsibility for the entire Hensley family.
But when Noah came home, he developed a high fever, coughed up blood, and suffered myocardial damage.
He said he'd only inhaled too much smoke.
He also told me not to tell Julian.
I grabbed his hand.
"Why didn't you say anything?"
He gave a faint smile.
"Evelyn, you'd only just married him back then."
"If I'd said it, it would've sounded like I was holding it over him."
"And Chloe was dead. A dead person couldn't defend herself."
My throat tightened.
"So you kept it secret for six years?"
"I wasn't planning to keep it secret forever."
He stared at the ceiling.
"It just feels like it's too late now."
I covered his mouth with my hand.
"Don't say that."
His eyes crinkled with a faint smile.
"Evelyn, I want some warm water."
I went to the nurses' station to get some.
I had just reached the corner of the hallway when I heard someone call my name.
"Evelyn."
Lily stood by the elevator with a small piece of gauze taped over her ankle.
I looked at that tiny patch of gauze and suddenly found the whole thing absurd.
Noah was lying in a regular hospital room waiting for money for surgery.
She had taken up a rehab slot in Switzerland over a scrape.
I stopped and looked at her.
"Six years ago, during that warehouse fire, did Chloe actually go inside? Did you lie?"
Lily's expression changed for a split second before she bit her lip.
"Evelyn, what are you trying to say?"
She didn't speak loudly, but it was just loud enough for people passing by to hear.
Julian called at that exact moment.
Lily answered, already sounding tearful.
"Julian, I'm fine. Evelyn was just asking about Chloe."
A few seconds later, she held the phone out to me.
Julian's voice was cold as a blade.
"Evelyn, did you go there to give Lily a hard time?"
"I asked about what happened the day of the fire."
"I warned you not to drag Chloe into this. She's already dead. Do you really have to pull a dead woman into your schemes too?"
Schemes.
Again with the schemes.
Suddenly, I didn't want to explain anymore.
"Julian, what would you do if one day you found out you'd mourned the wrong person, repaid the wrong debt, and protected the wrong family?"
He gave a cold laugh.
"That day will never come. All I know is that Chloe saved me."
The call ended.
Lily took her phone back. Tears still clung to her face, but there was no fear left in her eyes.
"Evelyn, you need to accept your fate. Gratitude isn't something you can steal just because you want it."
I looked at her.
"Anything you steal has a way of coming back to burn you."
...
That night, I went back to the Sterling house to get some documents.
Lily sat on the living-room sofa with one foot propped on an ottoman.
Julian was crouched in front of her, removing the gauze.
The moment I walked in, Lily pulled her foot back.
"Evelyn, don't misunderstand. Julian just said the ointment the hospital gave me wasn't good enough."
Julian didn't correct her.
I walked past them into the bedroom and took out the original marriage certificate, the prenuptial agreement, and a copy of the contract from when I'd mortgaged the house my parents left me to provide working capital for the Sterling Group.
Julian followed me in and shut the door behind him.
"You're really going to take this to court?"
"Yes."
He grabbed my wrist.
"Noah is still in the hospital. If you turn against me now and something happens, who's going to help you?"
I looked up at him.
"I don't need your help. I just need you to stop walking all over me."
From the living room, Lily called softly,
"Julian, I think my ankle hurts again."
Julian let go of my wrist almost on instinct.
In that moment, the last little voice inside me went silent.
...
That night, I returned to the hospital.
There was a sheet of paper beside Noah's pillow.
The handwriting was crooked and shaky.
"Evelyn, if I don't make it, don't beg him again."
"I just want you to be okay."
I clenched the paper in my hand and sat there all night.